My first ride in an Ambulance...

Friday, October 9th, I was at work when I felt uncomfortable. I had been bleeding for the last 3 days, but it was old blood and I was told it was nothing to worry about as long as there was no pain to go with it or it wasn't bright red and heavy. Well, there wasn't any pain, but it was bright red, so I started to panic a little. I told my supervisor that I didn't want to do this to them and leave them one man short, but I had to go to my doctor...he asked if everything was okay and I started to cry, I explained to him that I was bleeding and I don't think it is normal. I was just going to have my husband take me to my primary doctor, but instead my work called the medics. When all these people were fussing over me and asking me questions while strapping me into a gurney, I felt so stupid...I was genuinely concerned about my baby, but I didn't feel that it was necessary to be in an ambulance. Once I got to the Emergency Room, the nurses were asking me questions while putting an IV in me and taking blood. When I explained what was going on, one of the ladies said that it sounds like I could be miscarrying, but we will know more after an ultrasound. So, naturally, I'm scared that we are losing our first baby...this is the worst feeling in the world. My husband was being strong and keeping me together...his support was exactly what I needed. Well, when we got into the ultrasound room, I was tearing up because I feared the worst...but as soon as he put the machine on my stomach I saw our baby and its fast little pitter pattering heartbeat. I was overwhelmed with joy. The cervix was still closed which meant that the blood wasn't coming from the baby...I wasn't miscarrying. THANK GOD. Still concerned about why I was bleeding, I was temporarily distracted by the doctor doing the ultrasound. He was so awesome...he explained the machine to us, showed up where everything is inside me...it was nice to just relax and look at our baby for a few minutes. When I got back into my room, the nurse came in and told me that my blood type is O- with the RH- Factor...this means that if the baby's blood doesn't match mine my body will start to generate antibodies that will attack the baby...however, this pregnancy wont be affected because the baby's blood hasn't mixed with mine yet, so my body has created the antibodies...but the next time I get pregnant, that fetus would be affected unless I get the shot to prevent it. Well, I got the shot and I will get another one at 28 weeks. What a relief. Even with this being said, the nurse said that she still wouldn't be surprised if I miscarry. I wanted to be prepared for anything, so I kept it in mind, but it was very unsettling to hear. Matthew didn't like one of the doctors, because as soon as I explained the first day I started bleeding, he said, nonchalant, sounds like you were leaking amniotic fluid...and then left the room. Okay!? So, what does that mean? How do you tell someone who is fearing for her unborn child's life something like that but not clarify that it could be nothing? My primary OB/GYN said that the blood is most likely coming from behind and around the baby...its my blood, it doesn't sound like anything to be worried about...just keep an eye on it, and take it easy. Fortunately the bleeding stopped...the baby is doing just fine making mommy sick all the time. Im 11 weeks pregnant now and I never thought I would be so happy to be sick and miserable. LOL. I was on bed rest for a few days. Now I'm trying to get released and cleared to go back to work, but its taking a bit longer that expected...so looks like I'm losing one more day of work.

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Dont let the stress get to ya...

I hate stress. But, unfortunately, its apart of life. Work has got me tied up in knots, and no matter how badly I want to relax, it seems to be one thing after another. Being pregnant, I'm trying to think about how this is affecting our baby. So, I'm trying to be positive and wait things out...its bound to go away soon...I hope.

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Anyways, our next appointment is next week, Oct. 14th. I don't know what they are going to do...everything is so new to us, we just roll with it. I am about 10 weeks now...and yesterday had some mild spotting...this morning woke up with a little heavier spotting...but I don't have any pain, so I'm not too worried about it, but I am going to discuss it with my OB.

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Matthew got the job he has been waiting for for months. I'm proud of him. Its better money, retirement, benefits, and a secure position. We discussed it, and after the baby is born, I may not have to go back to work, I might be able to get a part time job somewhere else. YAY! Its going to suck when he is gone for 2 months in Diego for training, but in the long run, its worth it, and we are strong, so we will survive it.

All I want is for him to be done with the training well before the baby arrives. But they are getting things moving now, so hopefully it wont be long before he officially starts.

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Its crazy, I'm already showing a little bit. Not enough for anyone else to notice, but I feel my jeans getting snug. Its weird. I have always had a flat tummy, now there is a small pooch there. AH! LOL. I have been taking walks when I can (when I feel well I should say). This first trimester has been hard to exercise because of the nausea, but I'm starting to get a little more energy back. I don't want to be lazy throughout the pregnancy and not be able to lose the baby weight after I have it...so motivation is key.

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The weather is finally cooling off, and my acne is clearing up slightly...but the wind made my lips so dry that I keep getting cold soars. I don't know if its part of the pregnancy symptoms or if its just my stupid body doing its own thing. I haven't had too many emotional outbursts...yet...but I have been feeling a little emotional. I'm not a fan of crying over little things, so I hold it in. Pretty sure I should just let it out, haha, but oh well...it will happen when it happens. I feel forget full and easily distracted...even this blog doesn't seem to be making much since. Hopefully you can follow it though...I'm trying.