Dont let the stress get to ya...

I hate stress. But, unfortunately, its apart of life. Work has got me tied up in knots, and no matter how badly I want to relax, it seems to be one thing after another. Being pregnant, I'm trying to think about how this is affecting our baby. So, I'm trying to be positive and wait things out...its bound to go away soon...I hope.

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Anyways, our next appointment is next week, Oct. 14th. I don't know what they are going to do...everything is so new to us, we just roll with it. I am about 10 weeks now...and yesterday had some mild spotting...this morning woke up with a little heavier spotting...but I don't have any pain, so I'm not too worried about it, but I am going to discuss it with my OB.

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Matthew got the job he has been waiting for for months. I'm proud of him. Its better money, retirement, benefits, and a secure position. We discussed it, and after the baby is born, I may not have to go back to work, I might be able to get a part time job somewhere else. YAY! Its going to suck when he is gone for 2 months in Diego for training, but in the long run, its worth it, and we are strong, so we will survive it.

All I want is for him to be done with the training well before the baby arrives. But they are getting things moving now, so hopefully it wont be long before he officially starts.

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Its crazy, I'm already showing a little bit. Not enough for anyone else to notice, but I feel my jeans getting snug. Its weird. I have always had a flat tummy, now there is a small pooch there. AH! LOL. I have been taking walks when I can (when I feel well I should say). This first trimester has been hard to exercise because of the nausea, but I'm starting to get a little more energy back. I don't want to be lazy throughout the pregnancy and not be able to lose the baby weight after I have it...so motivation is key.

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The weather is finally cooling off, and my acne is clearing up slightly...but the wind made my lips so dry that I keep getting cold soars. I don't know if its part of the pregnancy symptoms or if its just my stupid body doing its own thing. I haven't had too many emotional outbursts...yet...but I have been feeling a little emotional. I'm not a fan of crying over little things, so I hold it in. Pretty sure I should just let it out, haha, but oh well...it will happen when it happens. I feel forget full and easily distracted...even this blog doesn't seem to be making much since. Hopefully you can follow it though...I'm trying.