Depression??

Well, I cant quite describe it. I feel depressed, and for no reason at all. Nothing in particular is bothering me. I wish I were working already. Kylie is already enrolled in daycare, so that's not the issue. My work isn't willing to work with my availability until the 12th of July. I'm a little concerned about our finances, even though I know we have been in worse circumstances and always find away through...but for some reason, I cant shake this. Yesterday we discontinued Direct TV and went with NetFlix. So much cheaper and so worth it. Trying to find ways of saving $money$.

Kylie came home today with a cold/allergies. She isn't fussing over it, but I feel so sad for her, she can hardly breathe through her nose. I'm going to take her in tomorrow to have her checked out.

I know that this depressed feeling is supposed to be normal, but how long does it last??? After I go back to work, if it doesn't go away, I'm going to talk to my doctor about it. I don't like feeling this way. I didn't even sleep well last night. Woke up crying and uncomfortable. Fortunately I'm not taking it out on my wonderful husband and beautiful baby girl...but I know they can sense it and I don't want this negativity in our home.

Post-it Notes

7 weeks old

Wow, really? Time is seriously flying by. I cant believe that over a month and a half ago, I was in the hospital having this beautiful little miracle...it literally feels like maybe a week ago. Its funny, when you are just a daughter, your parents say things like, "I remember when you were this big. Seems like yesterday, I was holding you in my arms." I was like, "Oh Geeze! So sappy." blah blah blah. You just don't understand what they are feeling when they say things like that...until you experience it yourself. Now I get it. I cant imagine what it is going to feel like when my baby gets married and has a baby of her own.

Anyway, I already posted about her tooth coming in...she isn't too cranky over it, she is drooling more, but nothing too extreme. However, I can tell it is bothering her more and more, especially today. She bites down on her sizzle (pacifier) and then spits it out. I don't know what to do for her because she is still so little, a teething ring is too big for her to chew on. Guess we are just going to have to ride this one out for a little while.

She is officially moving up to 4 oz. We thought she was ready for 3 oz a while back ago, but there were a few bottles that it seemed to be too much for her. She was spitting a lot of it up, so we decreased it back down to 2 oz bottles. But, a couple nights ago, I decided to try giving her 4 oz to see if she would sleep a little longer throughout the night...sure enough, she didn't spit any up, and slept like a baby (no punt intended). I gave her 2 oz this morning, she was fine with that for the most part, but started screaming, I thought it was just cause she was cranky, maybe gassy, so we went on our walk...she dozed off as we got closer to coming back home, but once we got back inside she was awake and crying again, so I changed her bottom and gave her another bottle...she slept for about 2 hours and was ready to eat again. I, again, gave her 2 oz. That apparently wasn't enough *giggle* so we made another bottle and she drank almost the full 2 ounces of that one...now she is sleeping sound again. So, I guess, 2 ounces just isn't quite enough...its on to 4 ounces now. She is my growing little lady bug.

Its hard to keep this as updated as I would like...being a mommy takes up a lot of your time and energy, so although I would like to log every little thing that Miss Kylie does...(like right now, she is starting to wake up and because she lost her sizzle she found her fingers {the same ones I sucked on when I was a baby, the two middle one} and is making cute little sounds)...I just don't quite have the time. I was going to print all these blogs and put them in a binder to make a journal for Kylie, but my printer is being a bit stubborn...so soon, I will have them printed out. I'm also going to make a quilt out of her baby clothes...gotta invest in a sewing machine...and sewing lessons *giggle*. Well, monster is waking up, so I need to wrap up this rambling I'm doing. Until next time......

Teething at 2 months???

My daughter is teething...Already! About a week ago, my mom said she thought she could feel a tooth coming in...I didn't really believe it because Kylie is soo young. I thought, "there is no way she is teething already, I think its just her gums, maybe they are callused or something." Sure enough, yesterday, I checked out her bottom gums again, and you can see the tip of the left front tooth peeking out. She is a trooper, cause I didn't even know. I noticed she was drooling more and biting at her pacifier, but I thought that was normal. She is almost 7 weeks old...and already working on her first tooth. Whoa!

Making Tutus for Infants

Baby tutus are so super easy to make and they come out fabulous! No-one will ever know you made it yourself unless you tell them.
Supplies needed to make baby tutus:
elastic - this is for the waist band of the tutu. You can use regular elastic used for sewing in waistbands. I like to buy colored hair bands. The large kind that are meant to fit on an adults head as a headband. I use these because they just plain look more polished if any of the elastic ends up showing.
spool of tulle - I used the 6 inch width. Use whatever size or color makes you happy!

http://www.make-your-own-baby-stuff.com/baby-tutus.html

Made me think of my daughter...

♪♫♪There she is my little girl I'm sure she'll get in trouble every now and then And I pray to god that when she does I'll be just as understanding as my father was 'cause the last thing that I want to do is let her down So instead of being angry I'm gonna throw my arms around her and I'll say In the sunlight or the rain, brightest nights or darkest days I'll always feel the same way whatever road you may be on No you're never too far gone My love is there wherever you may be Just remember that you will always be my baby♪♫♪

Happy Father's Day

Matthew,

You are such an amazing father.

You brighten Kylie's day with just the sound of

your loving voice.

It warms my heart when I

watch you two play together.

Your the best daddy in the world.

XoXo!

Happy Fathers Day daddy!

Love your Monster,

Kylie P

SHE IS SMILING!

Kylie is almost 6 weeks old and already smiles! This is the sweetest most beautiful thing I have ever seen. It melts my heart with happiness! I was giving her kisses on her mouth, she had it open so it made a loud echo, smacking sound, and she smiled so big...she loved it. Then, I was tickling her thighs and she smiled and flung her arms in the air. She smiles when she sees daddy...she loves her daddy more than three inches *wink*. Oh my goodness, its so awesome. I cant wait for her to giggle for the first time! She is precious!

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Photo Shoot With Jocelyn

Kylie was such a monster...she didn't want to cooperate at all. Lol. But, Jocelyn being as good as she is, still got some really good pictures...here is a sneakpeek

http://lykinsphotography.blogspot.com/

What's on mommy's mind...

I discovered that Kylie is like momma...she gets cold easily. Lol. We were being told that its probably colic, but after researching colic symptoms, I really don't think that's what it is, however, I was feeding her at the beginning thinking that she was crying because she was hungry, I may have been overfeeding her which can cause colic or signs of, but I have gone back to feeding her 2 oz. every 2-4 hours when she is hungry. I have learned what cry she makes when she is hungry, so I'm not mistaken an upset tummy for hunger. Kylie stopped crying every time we bundled her up with extra blankets. Living in the desert, we run the cooler all day long, there fore making it very cold in the house. I didn't run it at all yesterday and she didn't cry except when she was hungry. Apparently, if your cold and cant sleep, you tend to get cranky *sarcasm* Thank Goodness! I'm so glad I figured it out. I hate to see her unhappy. It doesn't feel good when your baby is screaming from discomfort and you feel like nothing you do helps...

Anyway, she is 5 weeks old and getting so big and strong. She holds her head up so well already and when I hold her under her arms, she stands and bounces on her feet. She loves that. I feel like its too soon for her to be able to do that *giggle* I guess I just think of her as the newborn that was just born yesterday though. It all goes by so quickly. I'm glad that I'm able to be home with her and watch her earliest developments. However, I will be going back to work the middle of next month. I'm happy about it, but kinda scared. Lol. How am I going to handle not having my sweet pea near me most of the day? Although, I love the daycare she will be attending. Everyone is so wonderful there and its clean. They spend a lot of one on one quality time with the kids and teach them things. So, even though she wont be home with me working on tummy time, they will be helping her learn to roll over and play. Of course, I'm not going to leave all that up to them, we will work on those things at home as well, but its good to know that she wont be just laying around at some ladies house doing nothing.

July 6th, we will be heading to Pismo Beach! I cant wait. Kylie P's first trip to the beach! Oh my goodness, its going to be a blast. Her aunt, uncle, and cousins from Alaska are coming. They cant wait to meet her. Grandma bought all the grand kids beach toys. She got Kylie a bathing suit, sunglasses with matching hair bows, sandals, and a pail & shovel. I'm a little bummed that she bought Kylie's first swim suit. I wanted to buy things like that for her first...but when I asked Matthew if I could get her a bikini, he said, "Babe, she cant even hardly hold her head up much less swim *laugh*" So, basically that was a no, so I didn't, and then grandma did. Oh well, no big deal I guess. I just hope I can get her something else special first. I don't know what it is about mother's and their first baby...my mom said she knows exactly how I feel, a mother wants to experience buying certain things for their babies first. But, it was sweet of her to think about things like that for the beach...it will be fun, even though Kylie cant play with the shovel and pail, it will be cute props for pictures.

Tomorrow, we are heading to the lake to have pictures done of Kylie. Jocelyn has been waiting for this moment since we found out we were pregnant. Lol. She said she couldn't wait to take maternity pictures for us because we are a fun photogenic couple...and she cant wait to meet Kylie. After seeing her pictures on Facebook, I think she is that much more excited to take pictures of her because she is so cute and photogenic already *wink*. At my baby shower, Jocelyn gave us an outfit for this occasion...its a white onesie with a headband. Has feathers on the flower...its adorable. I cant wait to see the pictures, I know they are going to turn out great. Jocelyn is a wonderful photographer...and a sweet person. Huge Thank You Jocelyn! You can check out her work at her website: http://lykinsphotography.blogspot.com/

Well, I suppose that's everything so far...I mean, I could go on and on...life doesn't stop...but I will save some for the next post *laughing*. Hope everyone is have a great summer so far.

1 month 3 days old

Well, I don't know what the deal has been, but Kylie went from quiet, practically never cry to being loud and angry. Its a side I hoped we would never see. I thought it could be colic, but I'm not sure. However, I have found that if I put a heavier blanket on her, it sooths her to sleep. I'm wondering if she has just been cold. Its so hot outside, so we run the cooler almost all day long...especially because Matthew is sleeping, makes it more comfortable for him to during the day. But, I'm just happy that I am able to make her comfortable and happy. Its rough first time around...being a parent...you don't know what to do, but its amazing how you learn...how the instincts just kick right on in. Lol. I never thought I would be any good at this mothering thing...but TaDa...I'm not too bad at it. I love her with all my heart...even when I'm annoyed and frustrated when she cries and I cant do anything to make it better...she is a wonderful gift. We couldn't ask for more. I'm so lucky and fortunate to have such a beautiful family!

Pretty in Pink

Just like mommy's toes...only cute and tiny *wink*

PS. Its a little more difficult painting such little toes, not to mention trying not to wake her. Hehe! But I love it!

Kylie's Song

♪♫♪Nite nite Kylie Girl♪♫♪

♪♫♪you're a little monster♪♫♪

♪♫♪with mommy's hair

and daddy's ears♪♫♪

♪♫♪your a pearl in an oyster ♪♫♪

Bath Time!

I haven't posted any bath time pictures...and I kinda feel bad that we didn't take a "first bath" picture *pout* But, I took a couple today. She never cries when I give her baths, she just always gives me this dirty look. Lil' Miss Attitude...just like her momma. *giggle*

♪♫♪ Rubber Ducky ♪♫♪ your the one ♪♫♪
♪♫♪ you make bath time lots of fun... ♪♫♪

Kylie is 1 month (4 weeks) old today! Oh my goodness!!! Too Fast...Slow Down! *giggle*

My little girl is growing up...

I cant believe how strong she is already.

She is almost a month old and she holds her head up so well on her own already.

She is the cutest thing!

Belly Stump News...

Well, I think her belly button is okay, we just have to keep cleaning it with alcohol so it drys completely out and hopefully falls off in the next few days. It looks to be almost detached, but still not fully dried out yet. But the smell isn't near as bad since we have been cleaning it every diaper change. Thank goodness. I felt so bad for my sweet angel...I didn't know we should have been cleaning it so often...the hospital told us at bath times only because water may get it in and you need to make sure it stays dry and use alcohol to dry it up. Would have been nice to know. Oh well, all that matters is that little girl is healthy and happy...which I think she is. She is still such a good baby!

Yucky stump...

I'm hoping that it isn't, but baby Griz may have an infection in her belly button from the umbilical cord stump. It should have fallen off by now, but it seems a little soggy with this gooey/smelly stuff... its awful, and when I clean it with alcohol it looks like its nearly fallen off, but I'm not sure. I don't think its a bad infection, but possibly the start of one. I just hope it falls off soon. Its gross and creeps me out *giggle*. The hospital didn't tell us much about the cord care, but the video they showed us said to clean it at bath times only...however, we heard that you should clean it at every or every other diaper change...some people even say don't clean it with Rubbing Alcohol at all. The paper we have about care for the stump says to wash it with soap and water, yet we were told by the hospital to not get water on it and if water does get on it, pat it dry and use Rubbing Alcohol. Things seem so uncertain that I feel like we may not have been taking as good of care of it as we could have if we had the proper instructions...so now, its taking longer for it to fall off, not to mention the possible infection that could have been avoided. Oye, oh well, we are cleaning it at ever diaper change now, and if it doesn't seem to dry up and look better in the next day or two, we will take her in to the doctor and see what they think. She doesn't seem bothered by it, even when I clean it, but still, it doesn't seem normal, especially the smell. Makes me gag.