My first ride in an Ambulance...

Friday, October 9th, I was at work when I felt uncomfortable. I had been bleeding for the last 3 days, but it was old blood and I was told it was nothing to worry about as long as there was no pain to go with it or it wasn't bright red and heavy. Well, there wasn't any pain, but it was bright red, so I started to panic a little. I told my supervisor that I didn't want to do this to them and leave them one man short, but I had to go to my doctor...he asked if everything was okay and I started to cry, I explained to him that I was bleeding and I don't think it is normal. I was just going to have my husband take me to my primary doctor, but instead my work called the medics. When all these people were fussing over me and asking me questions while strapping me into a gurney, I felt so stupid...I was genuinely concerned about my baby, but I didn't feel that it was necessary to be in an ambulance. Once I got to the Emergency Room, the nurses were asking me questions while putting an IV in me and taking blood. When I explained what was going on, one of the ladies said that it sounds like I could be miscarrying, but we will know more after an ultrasound. So, naturally, I'm scared that we are losing our first baby...this is the worst feeling in the world. My husband was being strong and keeping me together...his support was exactly what I needed. Well, when we got into the ultrasound room, I was tearing up because I feared the worst...but as soon as he put the machine on my stomach I saw our baby and its fast little pitter pattering heartbeat. I was overwhelmed with joy. The cervix was still closed which meant that the blood wasn't coming from the baby...I wasn't miscarrying. THANK GOD. Still concerned about why I was bleeding, I was temporarily distracted by the doctor doing the ultrasound. He was so awesome...he explained the machine to us, showed up where everything is inside me...it was nice to just relax and look at our baby for a few minutes. When I got back into my room, the nurse came in and told me that my blood type is O- with the RH- Factor...this means that if the baby's blood doesn't match mine my body will start to generate antibodies that will attack the baby...however, this pregnancy wont be affected because the baby's blood hasn't mixed with mine yet, so my body has created the antibodies...but the next time I get pregnant, that fetus would be affected unless I get the shot to prevent it. Well, I got the shot and I will get another one at 28 weeks. What a relief. Even with this being said, the nurse said that she still wouldn't be surprised if I miscarry. I wanted to be prepared for anything, so I kept it in mind, but it was very unsettling to hear. Matthew didn't like one of the doctors, because as soon as I explained the first day I started bleeding, he said, nonchalant, sounds like you were leaking amniotic fluid...and then left the room. Okay!? So, what does that mean? How do you tell someone who is fearing for her unborn child's life something like that but not clarify that it could be nothing? My primary OB/GYN said that the blood is most likely coming from behind and around the baby...its my blood, it doesn't sound like anything to be worried about...just keep an eye on it, and take it easy. Fortunately the bleeding stopped...the baby is doing just fine making mommy sick all the time. Im 11 weeks pregnant now and I never thought I would be so happy to be sick and miserable. LOL. I was on bed rest for a few days. Now I'm trying to get released and cleared to go back to work, but its taking a bit longer that expected...so looks like I'm losing one more day of work.

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Dont let the stress get to ya...

I hate stress. But, unfortunately, its apart of life. Work has got me tied up in knots, and no matter how badly I want to relax, it seems to be one thing after another. Being pregnant, I'm trying to think about how this is affecting our baby. So, I'm trying to be positive and wait things out...its bound to go away soon...I hope.

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Anyways, our next appointment is next week, Oct. 14th. I don't know what they are going to do...everything is so new to us, we just roll with it. I am about 10 weeks now...and yesterday had some mild spotting...this morning woke up with a little heavier spotting...but I don't have any pain, so I'm not too worried about it, but I am going to discuss it with my OB.

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Matthew got the job he has been waiting for for months. I'm proud of him. Its better money, retirement, benefits, and a secure position. We discussed it, and after the baby is born, I may not have to go back to work, I might be able to get a part time job somewhere else. YAY! Its going to suck when he is gone for 2 months in Diego for training, but in the long run, its worth it, and we are strong, so we will survive it.

All I want is for him to be done with the training well before the baby arrives. But they are getting things moving now, so hopefully it wont be long before he officially starts.

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Its crazy, I'm already showing a little bit. Not enough for anyone else to notice, but I feel my jeans getting snug. Its weird. I have always had a flat tummy, now there is a small pooch there. AH! LOL. I have been taking walks when I can (when I feel well I should say). This first trimester has been hard to exercise because of the nausea, but I'm starting to get a little more energy back. I don't want to be lazy throughout the pregnancy and not be able to lose the baby weight after I have it...so motivation is key.

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The weather is finally cooling off, and my acne is clearing up slightly...but the wind made my lips so dry that I keep getting cold soars. I don't know if its part of the pregnancy symptoms or if its just my stupid body doing its own thing. I haven't had too many emotional outbursts...yet...but I have been feeling a little emotional. I'm not a fan of crying over little things, so I hold it in. Pretty sure I should just let it out, haha, but oh well...it will happen when it happens. I feel forget full and easily distracted...even this blog doesn't seem to be making much since. Hopefully you can follow it though...I'm trying.

2 Months Pregnant

Well, in the beginning of this pregnancy, I felt like I was going to be one of those lucky freaks of nature women who don't have any morning sickness...Apparently, I thought too soon. LOL. As soon as week seven hit, the morning sickness began. Now, at eight weeks, I am for sure experiencing the typical pregnancy symptoms. As miserable as it is at the time, I'm glad to have it. Gluten for punishment I suppose *giggle* but I'm proud to be pregnant. Having a family with Matthew is so much more than I could ask for. We are very lucky, and I try to keep that in mind when I am huggin' the porcelain thrown, haha. I have switched shifts to weekend days, and although I hate losing the quality time with my husband during the weekend, it is less stressful. I have to do what is best for me and our baby. So far so good. Yesterday, Matt and I went to Bakersfield Fair...it was a lot of fun. Matthew won me two stuffed animals from some Carny games. He is so cute. We got a piece of art, its Japanese and says Griswold made out of characters. Its very awesome. We had one made at last years fair, but were disappointed with the outcome...this one is amazing. We love it. So, anyways, our baby is about the size of a large raspberry and growing by the day. Our next appointment is in about 2 weeks.

First Appointment...for real this time

Had our first appointment today! We were able to have an ultrasound done and saw our iddy biddy baby...including its heartbeat. Oh my goodness! The most innocent and amazing thing i have ever been able to experience. We are a proud mommy and daddy. :o) I am 6 weeks and 4 days pregnant and the baby will be due May 6th, 2010. Dr. Miller is a fantastic doctor. Couldn't be more pleased. Everything seems that much more real to us now.

6 Weeks

Well, this week has been an overly stressful one due to work issues, however, for the baby's sake, I have to stay calm and try not to think about everything.

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So, the update...we have a new appointment on Monday 9/14. I have to get a doctors note so that I don't have to re qualify on my firearm and wear my gun belt at work. Without it they will make me shoot and the lead isn't good for people without pregnancy, so its really bad for the baby, especially so soon in the pregnancy.

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Its so funny how so many women complain about nausea and tender breasts at the very beginning of the pregnancy. I have had slightly tender breasts, but nothing too major or painful. I get queasy for about five mins and then it goes away. My appetite has enhanced a bit and only fruit and sandwiches sound good. Not craving or anything, just haven't wanted anything heavy. Light and healthy sounds amazing, and Subway has been my best friend. LOL. But, I am expecting the nausea to kick in in a few weeks...we will see...maybe I will be one of the very few fortunate women with no nausea or morning sickness at all...wouldn't that be nice? *wink*

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Based on my calculations, we are about 6 weeks along. I cant wait to get a more accurate time on it though...I may be further than I think. The newest names I think we should go with are...

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Kylie Paige Griswold

(we both have settled with that one)

Jayden Kole Griswold

(Matt's not sure about it. He is leaning more toward Landen Kole...we will see...)

BABY STUFF!

Although it may seem too soon, Matthew and I have always been the type to be well prepared. We found a great deal on a car seat/stroller combo, playpen, and high chair. They all match, are neutral, and great quality on sale...it was too good to pass up. My mom has already bought the baby 2 toys, and my mother in law bought 2 thermal blankets. I'm so excited. I don't think it has officially set in just yet, mainly because I'm not showing yet. We are about 6 weeks along now. I cant wait to make it through the first trimester...

Darn it...

No appointment today. When I went into Dr. Lacy's office, I told them that after making the appointment with them for a PAPP, I found out that I was pregnant. They said that basically, Dr. Miller likes to do his own PAPP's for their records, so it would be a waste of a co-pay to do it today. So, we headed to Ridegecrest Hospital and filled out paperwork and made an appointment for September 22nd @ 3 o'clock. I will be about 8 weeks by my calculations, which they said is the perfect time to have a first appointment. So...until then, I will just keep doing what I'm doing, taking care of myself with exercises and healthy food. Slightly disappointed, but its okay.

So, Matthew and I have been discussing it, and we were browsing through Wal-Mart's baby department, and we decided that the nursery is going to be decorated Brown and Green with an accent color depending on the gender. For a girl, it will be accented with pink, boy will be accented with blue. I'm so excited, I cant even wait to start buying stuff. Matthew says that we have to start buying things now, but I don't know...Personally I think its too soon...but I wont argue, I'm all for getting baby stuff now. LOL. I don't know what we are going to do about a baby shower. I'm thinking my sister in law and mother in law are going to throw one for me, but nothing has been discussed yet...still a wee bit too soon. I have quite a few friends, but not many who live in town. My best friend lives out of state...so I don't know. We will figure it out when the time comes. I'm really not all that worried about it.

My First Appointment

Well, today is my first doctors appointment. Although I made this appointment just for an annual womanly check up, I am still oh so excited. Who knew you would be excited about this particular routine, ha! But, telling a doctor that three home pregnancy tests popped positive for baby making is so wonderful. After doing the doctors pregnancy tests and possible ultrasound, I cant help but feel so happy and warm inside. Its like it becomes that much more official. Oh, and I bought 2 large longsleeved shirts yesterday for when it cools off and I start to show, I also bought 3 books..."What to Expect When Your Expecting" and "100,000 Baby Names" and a journal by the author of "What to Expect...". This book is so useful...I have read up to where we are approximately at in the pregnancy so far. Well, actually I read up to the end of week six, which I believe Im going into this week. Anyway, I will tell you all how the appointment goes when I get home. Hopeing for an ultrasound *fingers crossed*

BIG NEWS FROM THE GRISWOLD'S

Yup, its true, after 3 pregnancy tests, I have confirmed it. We are going to have a baby. YAY! Couldn't be more excited about it. So, here is how it happend...LOL...just kidding, everyone knows how it happened.
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Tuesday, August 25th, 2009, I woke up feeling like crap, so naturally my first reaction was, maybe I'm pregnant. I took a pregnancy test and it showed up negative. So, I assumed that I had the flu that is going around. I called out sick and stayed in bed. Feeling like I had tapeworm or something, I wanted to eat all day, but still felt nauseous. Wednesday, woke up feeling better than Tuesday, but not 100% up to par, so I went to work to find myself feeling pukey again. Went home sick an hour and a half later. I told myself that I cant afford to lose anymore work, I will survive Thursday, and I did.

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Well, Saturday, we had made plans to go to the lake and spend the day with the in laws. Matthew wanted to get some new pictures of his parents and I wanted Mexican food Lol. Just kidding, I wanted to get out of Ridgecrest and spend some time with the family. While Matthew was frolfing with the guys, I stayed home to get ready so we could basically just head right out...while in the shower, I was doing a lot of thinking. Friday, I was supposed to start and when I didn't it made me wonder...did I take that test too soon? Should I take another one or wait till my Dr. appointment on the 4th? I decided to take another test and wouldn't you know...without even waiting the three minutes they tell you to, the first line popped up. I was looking at it and thinking to myself, "wait, that line is usually on the other side?" (this was test number 6, so of course I know what to expect with a negative) then as I sat and stared intensely at it...the second line showed up. I'm not even dressed, I literally had just gotten out of the shower...I'm jumping up and down and screaming. OH MY GOD! is this really happening? Taking a double take on the pee stick...sure enough, it was not my eyes playing tricks on me...we are really pregnant. First thing I think to do is send a picture of this positive test to my husband and closest friends. I call my mom and tell her, she didn't seem very excited and was more concerned with inviting me to someones baby shower, but nothing could bring me down from this natural high. I'm going to be a mommy. Wow! Amazing! With all this energy, I quickly got ready and decided to take a walk to Albertson's to get a money order for my car registration. On my way there was I was talking to my daddy and Shannon. They are so excited. When I told my dad that we were trying, he was hesitant because he doesn't want to get old and be a grandpa. LOL. Now that we are pregnant, he is looking forward to being a grandpa, grinning ear to ear. Talked to them for about an hour while wandering aimlessly in Albertson's parking lot haha. When I got back home, Matthew was pulling into the garage. I was so excited, I practically tackled him. He is super excited too...of course. So, now we need to tell his parents.

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We were heading up to the lake and I cant stop bouncing and smiling...the excitement was a warm overwhelming feeling. But, I had to tone it down a bit because we had planned months ago the way we wanted Don and Debi to find out. We invited them to play a game of Cranium right off the bat. After a few cards we decided to make a green card an everyone plays charades. Matthew and I acted out "we are pregnant" trying to get Don and Debi to guess it. After a while hahaha they finally got it...but didn't know we were being serious. They sat there and looked at us, when we said "we are pregnant" they were like, that's the answer...LOL....after they got it, they jumped to their feet yelling and got teary eyed grinning, which of course made me start to cry, we all hugged. It was the best reaction I could have ever seen when breaking wonderful new such as having a baby.

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Well, my mom had made a point that the test I took could have been defective and I should take another one with the first urine of the day, just to be sure. Me thinking there is now way you can get a false positive, I didn't think it was necessary, but Matthew and I felt better knowing for sure...there is a possibility for anything. So after hanging out at the wine walk talking to friends, we walked to Rite Aid and bought a couple more. I took one more last night and one first thing today...Yup...all 3 say Pregnant. Good enough for me.
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We will keep everyone posted throughout the pregnancy. So far, we have already had names picked out.

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Boy: Aiden Kole Griswold

Girl: Kylie Rae Griswold

*Names may change...pretty set on Kylie and set on Kole for the boy middle name...

♥Im Ready!♥

So, I have been ready to starting trying to have a baby for a couple months, but I knew that Matthew wasn't, so I said that I agree...we should wait for a while.

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We are still in a bit of a selfish stage in our lives, but honestly, you never lose the selfishness until you have something worth losing it for. Example, I was very selfish, with my time and with my money because my ex and I didn't share much interest in spending quality time together or share the money in a joint manner.

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When Matthew and I started getting really serious and moved in together, without even trying, the money was both of ours, time was saved to share with him so we could do the things we enjoy together. My mom always tried telling me, you have to look at things as both of yours, when I was will my ex...I never could...now it comes so natural.

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When having a baby, your forced to put someone else first...which requires you to spend time and money less foolishly. I know my husband isn't quite ready to start trying, and I do understand his concerns and reasons behind this decision. He basically feels that its too soon, his job isn't as stable as he would like it to be, he is trying to get on as with CLPD and if or when that happens the training is 2 months long and may or may not be here in town when he gets hired on. As of right now, the training is here, but the next go around, if he doesn't get picked up right away, might be in San Diego. He doesn't want to be gone for 2 months during my pregnancy...which is sweet of him, but if we keep thinking of the what ifs, we will always be predicting the future in a negative way, and finding excuses of why not to have a baby. They say that you are are never financially going to be ready, so that cant be an excuse. I'm 23 and he is 24 years old...not to say that is really old, haha, but I want more than one baby, but I also what to be done by the time I'm 30, and I would like a couple years between our first two. I don't know what the future is going to bring us, I don't know how many children we are going to have, I don't know when we are going to have them, I don't know what careers will come our way between now and the time we decide to start trying, but what I do know is life isn't on a schedule or plan, you have to roll with it and let things happen on their own...just because you see things working out a certain way doesn't mean that's how it is going to work out. I think we should stop using protection and let nature take its course...when we are supposed to get pregnant, then that's when it will happen. I told my husband that when he is ready, I'm ready.

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He is really anxious to buy a house. At first I thought he was saying that he wanted to buy a house before we have a baby. When I asked him about it, he said that we can start trying in a few months, but he wants to save up so that hopefully we can be in a house before the baby comes. That sounds so perfect to me. What better way to move into a house then to have a little family on the way to fill it.

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We looked at a few houses that are for sale right now, and with decent prices there were some really great houses...I think in about 5-6 months, we can have the down payment and be ready to buy...hopefully I will be a couple months pregnant by then. *wink wink*