IM BACK...

So, I dont know if Im just going through something, or if this is completely normal. I am in dying need of a break. Dont get me wrong, my daughter is my everything and I adore the hell outta her...but lately (by lately, I mean since the terrible twos kicked in) Im losing my freaking mind. I fee irritable all the time...she seems to do nothing but whine, throw fits, and ignore almost everything I say to her. I miss the days when she listened great, she smiled more than half the time...I miss those fun times...now its counting down the minutes till bed time. That doesnt seem normal...At All! I dont want to feel this way, but its completely involuntary. Thankfully my husband is so helpful and wonderful. As much as I miss the extra money laying around...Im so thrilled to have him home more often. The overtime consumed so much of his time that he couldnt really do anything at home. Now he helps clean, cook, and care for Kylie. Im a very lucky woman/mother...so why do I feel so down in the dumps? Oye!

We just got RainSoft installed...Best Investment EVER. Seriously, this water is amazing and it is throughout our house. Should extend the life of our pipes, water heater, and cooler pads. Expensive, but I think well worth it. We are trying to sell the Explorer and hopefully pay off most of our debt by May. Matthew said that in about a year we can try for another baby. Part of me is saying no more kids, but the majority of me is saying yes, Kylie needs a sibling. So maybe in a year or so we will be expecting baby number 2. I think I can do it...

February we are going to Pismo. Oh my goodness its been so long since we had a vacation. This is much needed for both of us, and I think Kylie will totally enjoy running all over the beach, chasing the seagulls and what not. We cant wait.

Anyway, we have a new computer...I dont know if I ever typed that our old one crapped out on us...so we have been using our phones and to blog, its really not easy or fun. So I stopped writing as much about Kylie Bug, which means I fall behind more than ever, and when I did type, it wasnt as pretty and creative. So, anyway, Im going to watch some How I Met Your Mother (funniest show EVER) and then go to sleep. Counting down the days till Christmas...Cant Wait to see her open her Backyardigans Guitar! And her Barbie VW Power Wheels.

Today Kylie said thank you twice and she's been using her words more and more. She thought daddy was putting her favorite movie tangled on and threw her arms in the air saying "whooo!" While I was watching jot noodles she saw the steam and immediately began blowing on my bowl to cool it off.

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The Griswolds are decorated for Christmas!

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This is the first year I have ever decorated outside. I love owning a house. We have our tree up with wrapped presents under it, lite Garland around the entry door, lite trees and raindeer in the front yard, snowflake lites in the fence and lites on the eves. Beautiful! This is some sort of record for us though...Christmas completely ready before December even arrived. Yay us!

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Thanksgiving 2011

Today was great. Although Kylie was awfully bratty (hello terrible 2's) we had a wonderful Thanksgiving. We got up to the lake around 10:30, Kylie had a blast with her cousins and the food was delicious. Ky looked out the window and spotted the go-kart LOL so she rode on that with uncle Scott, this daddy, then pa. She sure loves that thing. All day long Kylie was doing things that made me realize she not a baby anymore...she's a little girl...so smart and so big. She didn't eat which bothered me, but you can't make kids eat if they don't want to. The girls were playing the Wii and when we looked over to see what they were doing, Kayla was on her tummy and Kylie was straddling her sitting on her back...it was adorable. No sizzle from bedtime last night till 5am this morning, we went ahead and gave it to her so shed go back to sleep and get good rest for the busy day ahead...she got up at 6:30ish and from then on she hasn't had it...went to bed just fine. I wish I could express in writing all the things she has been doing that are impressive, but even trying to describe everything it doesn't do justice for actually being there. Needless to say, she's growing too fast and everything she does is great...kissing up when she wants something especially. She doesn't always want something when she gives loves but there are times when she does and she goes over board with it...its awesome. Cracks me up everytime. Tonight she gave daddy loves and waved to him good night...moments like that are just too precious for words. She lost a sock earlier this evening and I asked her were it went, she found it and put her naked foot up for me to out the sock back on. When I asked her while she was grunting if she wanted to poop on the potty, she ran in the bathroom and say on her little potty, so I'd say we are ready to begin potty training. Doesn't look like it will be too difficult. The hard part of association is already done...now its just a matter of teaching her to pull her pants down and sit on it before she goes...after letting me know first of course...it may take a while since she still isn't using words much but I'm prepared to have a lot of patience...I know its not something that just comes quickly. I'm definitely looking forward to no.more diapers though ;). She is still in a crib, and I'm not ready for her crib to be open so she can get in and out on her own yet, especially now that we just took sizzle away...she needs to get used to going to bed without it for awhile first then we can start the next drastic change in her bedtime routine. Anyway, thought I'd get all this down before I forget and have to catch up 2 months worth later. LOL.

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Bye Bye Binkie!

Well, tonight is attempt number one without her sizzle. So far so good. I have been trying to break her of this thing for months now and I always find myself giving in with the excuse that daddy has to work early everyday so we can't have her crying keeping him up...I never actually tried I just figured that would be the reaction to being in her crib without it. Well, she's in there and quiet for 5 mins so maybe this wont be as difficult as I imagined.

Today she was doing so many cute things and looking so big doing it. She had her hand in the air dancing in circles, she was blowing on the nozzles to her ball house because she saw daddy blowing it up, she also blows in a tissue because she thinks that's what we are doing to make that sound when blowing our nose, and she pushed her face into the plastic window of her ball house making funny faces. The things that make my day so fun! She talked to gramps on the phone and blew him kisses, that was so sweet. There are so many things I wish I could record but I don't think there would be a time I wasn't recording if I tried LOL.

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oops!

I underestimate just how smart my daughter is. I was making a few bows and she was sitting right next to me. She grabbed a pen off the desk and had an envelope already at hand, I looked and noticed the pen was clicked in the closed position so figured, no harm.in letting her pretentious to draw on the envelope. Then I heard a click...little miss smarty pants knows how to click the pen open...but no big deal, she's sitting right by me and she's usually good about drawing on the paper only...nope! Not this time...she drew on her leg. Why I didn't not see this coming is beyond me. This is only one of many examples to show how mommy doesn't realize just how intelligent daughter is. Ha! She is just amazing and such a good girl. I hear so many stories about other babies and I can't help but feel like Kylie is the best kid ever. She's well behaved, smart, gorgeous, and healthy. I'm the luckiest mom. I'm pleased to say that we have done a great job raising her so far. Since 2 months old she has slept in her crib and by 3 months slept thru the night, she's always put herself to sleep and even during the rough nights of teething she wakes up maybe once and it's a quick pop the sizzle in her mouth and she's back to sleep, she has been sick maybe 3 times, she began crawling at 4 months, walking at 10, kicked the bottle successfully and easily at 12 months, and she never stops amazing me with new things.

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Of course!

Leave it to my daughter to make a statement or prove me wrong. Yesterday I was talking about how she doesn't say very many words and we even took her sizzle away during the day so she would talk more...sure enough, all morning long she's been repeating things I say. Hi is her favorite. She said up, done, and a few other words. She also threw her dirty diaper away without influence. She's one smart cookie!

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18 months

I know I know! Its been forever since I have actually taken time to write about our little bug. The older she gets the less free time I seem to find.

So, Kylie Bug is almost 18 months. Holy crap! She changes daily. Some mornings she wakes up and it's like she learned so many new things over night. She has been talking a little more. She can say I love you, momma, Dada, done, yeah, no, and uh oh. She might be saying other things but they aren't very clear.

We got her ears pierced last weekend. She did pretty well considering she's not a fan of strangers being 4 feet away much less right next to her touching her. She was tired from our long day running around the stores in Bakersfield and the mall...so honestly I was expecting the worst, but she did great and she looks so grown up and beautiful with those little shiny diamonds in her ears.

I bought a potty for her the other day. I don't want it to be overwhelming or frustrating for either of us, so I figured as long as its there for her to be curious about, she can get to know why its there and how to use it. She hasn't really shown much interest in potty training, so I know she's not quite ready, but when she sits on the potty before bath time...she is so proud. Its really quite adorable.

Kylie has the most beautiful smile I have ever seen in my life! With all 7 of her teeth. That's right, at this point she has 2 top molars, 1 eye tooth, her two top and bottom teeth, and she's back at chewing on everything she can to break thru some more. She looks so different with all these teeth.

Books are probably the greatest things in the world to toddlers. She loves pointing at things and making us point at things, and she's so enthusiastic about everything too. Her little barn with animals to fit in the shapes is still one of her favorite toys. She takes the pig and cow and points one at me for me to make the sound, then points the opposite for sound...and this sneek little monster tries to trick me by pointing the same one twice. She can make the cow, sheep, and dog sounds. She knows where her ears, eyes, nose, belly hole, and hair is. When you ask her where's her nose she always puts her finger up it. Oye! Gross. She gives high fives...its more like fifteens though...she slaps your hand 3 times.

How well behaved and smart is my baby bug? Well, yesterday we were at the grocery store, she picked up a box of cereal, when I asked her to out it back she walked back to exactly where she got it and placed it in the empty hole. She almost always does that...she knows it has to go back where it belongs and usually tries to make sure its placed standing upright and facing forward...she's not even 2 and already a little ocd...not that I'm complaining but I don't want her to grow up too fast. Messy is what kids do. She understands nearly everything we say. It amazes me how quickly babies learn.

Backyardigans is still the greatest show ever...between that and Tangled. Needless to say, I'm a lot burnt out. Fortunately we don't want much tv. She's more of an outdoors kinda girl. Now that the weather isn't 112° we can actually play outside.

I have the same complaint I have always had. My "friends" seem to always have an excuse for not being able to go to the park with us. It made me realize how much I want Kylie to have a sibling. I feel like she's deprived of the children socialization she needs and deserves. Playing with mommy isn't so bad but its not at all the same. Sadly, we can not afford another baby and honestly, we don't really want to start over. Its not lack of trying to get parents to bring their kids to the park...knowing they will all either not answer or come back with a reason for not being able to, I still find myself inviting.

Tomorrow we are going to the fair. Last year Kylie was too young to understand what as going on...so I think she will really enjoy it this year.

Well, its breakfast time...so in 6 months I will make it a point to get back on here. LOL. Just kidding...maybe a month? I love being a mommy...I have all her special (and even the not so big) moments programmed in my memory so if I don't have a chance to blog about it, there's really no harm done.

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I can't help but laugh when I tell Kylie, "I'll spank your butt if you do it again." and she puts her hand on her butt and stops what she was doing. LOL. She's a smart cookie. (via Lisa Griswold)

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Every time, without fail, Kylie laughs watching Tangled when Rapunzel hits herself in the head with a frying pan. Its the only part she laughs. Its great! (via Lisa Griswold)

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Its the absolute sweetest thing when Kylie wraps her arms around my leg and kisses me outta nowhere. <3 (via Lisa Griswold)

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My Kylie Bug is the sweetest and cutest! I was washing the car and she grabbed a handfull of bubbles and started washing the car with me. I just love her. (via Lisa Griswold)

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Kylie smuggled her green sizzle in her onesie...I gave her her pink one, and she pulls out her green one and sat happily on the couch watching TV swapping from green to pink, pink to green. LOL. She's funny! (via Lisa Griswold)

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I love love love my daughters smile WITH teeth. She's not a baby at all anymore. She is my beautiful little girl. (via Lisa Griswold)

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My beautiful baby bug!

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Were to begin? At this age, everyday is a drastic change. Kylie has grown so much. Personality, thru the roof, height, outrageous! She was giving me closed mouth kisses last night. After each is she'd do the "Muah!" It was seriously the greatest, sweetest, most wonderful thing I have encountered. Everything she does is a bragging moment for me. LOL. She just sits there and I'm proud. People probably think my posts are ridiculous sometimes, bur to me, they are all important moments/memories...every one of them. Last night she was playing with spit bubbles. Yup, that's my girl...
A few days ago, I was in the bathroom getting ready when I heard her winning. I went to her room to see what she was upset about and found her on her rocking horse...she was able to get on it all by herself but not down. I was so proud I ran to my cellphone took a picture and called her daddy... he said he was working with her on it and taught her the night before. So cute!
Kylie either hide behind her hands, or, the newest move, hides the diaper and diaper wipes...I cant imagine a nasty diaper is better than having a clean one put on...but what do I know...LOL!
And my final entry to update this as best as I can, Kylie has a molar! I thought she was only working on her front too teeth, the 2 front and the right eye tooth, I can see them right at the surface, but when I was playing with her, I dipped her upside down and helad her laughing, I saw a little white bump in the back right side on top...A TOOTH!

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How can I deny my daughter playing outside when she not only got her shoes on, but also put my sandles on my feet correctly. LOL! She's been too cute all morning. I can't even handle it. She was playing with her Leapfrog refrigerator animals...they were in a Tupperware container and she had it about 6' away from the fridge, one at a time she grabbed one, put it on the fridge, went back and grabbed another...then she noticed a play pringles chip was in the Tupperware...apparently it didn't belong there, she threw it out and continued on with putting the animals on the fridge. So funny! I was typing on the laptop, she was moving her fingers mimicking mine. We played on the couch, she was giggling so hard, she grabbed my hand, directed me to her toy and I became her puppet as she made me open each pop up animal. We read a book...she's finally able to sit and listen instead of trying to eat the books. LOL. Its been a fun morning. Now she's taking a bath and we are going to run errands.

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Super proud to announce...

...that our fence is finished! Kylie is free to do (almost) as she pleases in the front yard and not get hit by a car. We still have a few cosmetic things to do with it, but at least its up. I got 2nd degree sunburn on my back...not so much fun, but you know, at least I will learn from my negligence and put on sunscreen in the future. There are still so many things we want to do around the house...I really want to paint, buy a dinning room set and bar stools, a patio set would be awesome...but I think we are going to continue working on the front yard and then the backyard. We are planting a tree, grass, build a planter box under the window, and build a deck. It will look so great when all is done. Much needed curb appeal to our beautiful home. Matthew is going to decorate the front bathroom and he doesn't like my cupcake kitchen set, so perhaps later (when we paint the dinning and kitchen area) we will change that theme. We found this perfect set at K-Mart...its red and tan, cappuccino theme. Anyway, life is treating the Griswold's great. I cant believe that we finally bought a house...Kylie is growing wonderfully, and I'm going back to work part time at Big 5. I'm not really looking forward to going back to work, but at the same time, I'm not upset about it. I think I have just adapted and become comfortable with being a house wife. I have my bow hobby, but thats not bringing in enough money...so, hi ho hi ho its back to work I go. Our goal is to pay off our debt so that we can start really putting money into the house and get the things we want for it. Like a new refrigerator, the things I listed above, and I know how much Matthew is wanting to work on the backyard. It needs a new fence which is going to cost a pretty penny (especially since we are not going to tackle that one ourselves, we decided to have a professional come do it). He wants to install a waterfall, plant a tree or two, build a seating area with step up planters around it, and tile the patio. I love his exterior design ideas. He is so savy when it comes to landscape and irrigation...not me...I will stick with indoor design. So, that's pretty much whats going on with us. Kylie knows where her eyes and nose is. Its so funny, when I ask, "wheres your nose?" she picks it. Eeewww, Gross! Lol! She understands almost everything you tell her, but still not speaking much. She is still a little young, and I know that she will talk up a storm when she is good and ready. I have been working with her about being done eating...she hasn't been throwing her food on the floor nearly as often, and she tries to tell us she is done...usually trying to say it, or by trying to pick up her tray. She is still throwing her little tantrums, and being a spoiled little butt hole, but we are working on that, and she usually does it when she is tired or teething hard. Seems like those top teeth just don't want to come through....she is in so much agony. Breaks my heart that there isn't much I can do for her. She is such a good girl. Couldn't ask for more.

Bug is too dang smart and growing so fast. She understands so much. Drink, outside, shoes, close and open, don't touch, kisses, I love you, pick it up, I think she understands come here but chooses not to listen. She lives the new house. We go out front and she gets to explore so much more freely than before. We are going to put up a fence today and tomorrow. I'm excited! Keep Kylie from running out into the street and we can enjoy our tine outside.

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our new home!

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Everytime we walk in the front doors of Wal-Mart, Kylie sees the TVs on the back wall and claps & says yay. LOL!

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I love you...

Kylie, just a minute ago, said, "I la loo" immediately after I said I love you. I can't believe how fast she is growing up.

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this was supposed to post yesterday...

Kylie said "banana". I kept saying it while breaking one apart, she kept trying to say it and all the sudden she, slowly, as if sounding it out, said it. I'm so proud. She also holds my hand when we walk around the store or up and down the street. She wasnt feeling well the past week, I think a stomach bug was going around. She wouldn't eat very much and would only sleep when I held her for a nap...in the middle of the night we would have to go hold her to sooth her back to sleep because she would be screaming and shaking. Couldn't tell if that was her tummy, teething, or scared. She seems to be doing fine now. In one week from today we will be moving into our new home. I can't believe we will be homeowners. Kylie is hitting that stage where she throws tantrums...the girl can scream I tell you what...she has been hitting but I think she's already learning not to do that.

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I just love my Little Love Bug

My bug is the sweetest thing ever to exist. She was blowing kisses goodnight to daddy while I was changing her...then after he walked out she started blowing me kisses, I smiled and said, "I just love you." She puts her hand up to me and I kissed her palm. She kissed her palm again and puts it up for me to kiss...this went on for a minute and I soaked up every second. I love my love bug and these are the moments that make life worth living. <3

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Chef Kylie

I have been awful at keeping this up to date, and I really want it to be accurate so when I print all the Blog Posts out to make her a book she can see what happened and when...but at the same time, I am a busy mommy, keeping Kylie happy and healthy, keeping husband happy, and making bows for my clients. I love my life, no matter how hectic, this blog doesnt define who I am as a mother, who my daughter is, or my husband, so Im not going to stress over it, however, I truly hope that I can keep the big milestone up to date better than I have been...(Although, everything is a "BIG" milestone)

Speaking of, last night, Kylie brought her play stroller out into the living room, daddy asked, "where's your baby?" I said, "Go get your baby." Not even thinking she would grab it from out of her room much less even know it was in there, she runs to her room and comes walking out holding her baby doll to her shoulder and patting it on the back...I helped her put it in the stroller and she walked across the living room with it....SHE IS TOO FREAKING SMART! I just love her so much.

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Another Quick Update...

When Kylie hears, lets change your diaper, she flees the scene, crouches down behind the loveseat. If we say, "lets go" she puts my sandals on and hits the door. She's too funny. Yesterday we went to a wedding...she had a blast running around with other kids and dancing on the dance floor. She was the life of the party LOL. Her top teeth are trying to push thru and its horrible. She is in complete agony some days. The past week has been rough. Not only teething but picking up a bratty little attitude.

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quick catch-up

Gives kisses when I say I love you, grawls when you say Dada, still claps whenever she hears yay or an applause

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Kylies new:

Words; Thank you, Hello, & bye
Motions; blows kisses, waves bye bye differently now, dances new moves, walks on her tippy toes, uses hand gestures to tell stories, and stomps.

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We have great news!

June 2007, Matthew and I began dating
August 2008, We got engaged
January 2009, Married
May 2010, Our beautiful daughter arrived
June 2011....we bought a house!!!

Yup, found out today our offer was accepted. We put it in yesterday and today we were told that we needed to out in our best and final...we stayed the same with our original offer and just a few minutes ago discovered it was accepted. Yay! Every year seems more and more magical with my husband. I am so lucky to be the girl that he picked, and experience these moments with him. He is so amazing and we are so fortunate to have what we have together. Its rare to find a true love like ours...those who have it know exactly what Im talking about. Heres to us! *Cheers*

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Little talking dare devil...

Well, Kylie discovered shanding on things...shoes, toys like her little barn aaaannnddd her dinosaur. Yup, crazy kid, she stands on it without holding on the handles, bounces, and talks away. It gives mommy high blood pressure, but I have to admit, its cute and impressive. Who knew this clumsy baby girl can stumble over her own two feet while walking but balances on that dinosaur on wheels like it's no big thing. Ha!
We went to her check up and she had to get shots...poor thing. But while we waited I let her play with my wallet, I kept saying things like money, are you playing with mommy's wallet...then she said wallet! Only once but I heard it :) Dr said Kylie is in the 50th percentile for both weight and height. She's about 22 lbs and I can't remember the lenght at the top of my head, but she sure is getting tall.
Today, I was holding her and she started telling me some exciting story, although I was listening and saying "oh yeah?" I wasn't looking at her so she leaned in my line of vision so that she had my full attention while telling me her story. Adorable! I wish I could write down every little thing she does, or video tape all the cute and fun moments. LOL.

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Not so little anymore girl...

I have tossed the bottles...well, except before bed, daddy feels its best to keep at least that one...I'm all for cold turkey though. Why tease her thinking she can still drink out of a baba if she can't at every milk meal? But today is day 3. Day 1 she wouldn't drink out of the sippy if there was milk in it, water or juice she loved, but as soon as she tried it with milk, the meltdown began. Like her whole world came tumbling down LOL. But that afternoon daddy tried and she took it like it was no big deal. I knew once she realized it was the sippy or nothing she'd give in. Yesterday and today, no problems. For about 2 days, the beginning of this week, she wouldn't nap. She wasn't cranky but I don't know what it is about nap times, mommy needs them. I was exhausted. She loves walking around wearing mommy's sandals. Its adorable. She is getting so tall so fast...needless to say, we can't keep anything on the end tables LOL. She points at everything, especially when you say "bird" or "look", puts her hands up when she can't find something or "I say where did it go?" My mother in law thinks she's gifted. I don't think she's gifted, but things definitely come easy to her. I fear she picked up some of my compulsive behavior, however. She is very particular as to what goes where. She stacks her blocks in ABC order, she puts the animals in the right shape holes, and nothing can be upside down when she lines toys up on a flat surface. If something is wrong, it all gets thrown to the floor and she's starts over. Its amusing to watch...I don't know where she picks these things up. Anyways, that's the update for her so far.
So I was reading a status on Facebook. A friend of mine lets her 8 month old sleep in mommy and daddys bed, even during naptime. Apparently she fell on the hardwood floors because she's now mobile and had to be taken to the er (baby is fine, no concussion)...not to be one of those people who feel the need to tell people how to raise or care for their child, but I truly disagree with babies/kids sleeping in bed with mommy and daddy. Kylie has slept in her crib since 2 months of age. This person also posted that she will try to get her baby to nap in her crib but she will still sleep in her bed during the night till 2 yrs old. What!?!?! I have to vent about this because I really feel its ridiculous how much people coddle their children. I will admit, certain things I'm a little over protective about, but for the most part, I let Kylie learn things on her own. No, I won't let her crawl in a hot oven to discover it will burn you, but she's going to fall down, that's how they learn to get back up...and at some point or another babies have to sleep on their own....in their own bed. Coddling for so long only creates bad habits that are going to be hard to break. I have heard so many people say they regret waiting so long to do certain things. Like I said, I wont tell people how to be a parent, but I most certainly have my opinions. I'm not perfect, and people disagree with my ways too, they have no problems saying so, but although I discipline my one year old, she is so well behaved. She doesn't touch things she's not supposed to, if she does all I have to do is say no or don't touch and she's leaves it alone. The cupboards are not all locked, only the ones under the sink where cleaners are, but when I say close it, she does just that. I began saying no from the moment she was mobile because I feel if you start young it will be easier as they grow older. She does NOT play with remotes, keys, cell phones, or the TV. She has plenty of toys, she doesn't need to mess with our electronics. One, they aren't for babies, and two, they are expensive...my butt is not an ATM. Those reading this, agree or agree to disagree if you must, its my opinion, and this is my blog to express it. My daughter is beautiful, so smart, and so sweet. She plays well with others as well as by herself. I'd say my husband and I are doing a great job.

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Kylie finally drank.from her sippy cup today. Daddy got her to do it. And she is so smart with shapes. She has this barn with animal on different shaped blocks, she puts the square and circle in the right spots. She like lining all of them up on a table or her dinosaur, then knock them all down. She gets so excites and proud She claps and says yay! Lol

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Little Miss Independent

My daughter is so independent now...where did my tiny little baby go? She didn't want me to take her to her room for bed time, she wanted to walk...so I followed her as she walked, sizzle in mouth and blanket in hand to her crib. She's adorable and growing so fast.

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Wanna know what drives me nuts?

Where to start. Well, I can't post this on Facebook for fear a riot will break out...babie/toddlers should at not time be allowed to play with your cell phone, computer, remotes, or anything else that isn't meant for babies. Kylie knows she is not to play with any of those items nor the TV, dishwasher, stove, or inside the fridge. Call me stricked but she has no need for touching those things, she has plenty of her own toys. If you're electronic devices stopped working because of baby drool, you have no one to blame but yourself! Sorry, just had to get that off my chest.
Another thing that drives me crazy, my daughter chewing up food, spitting it out, playing with it, then putting it back in her mouth. Yuck! Makes me gag everytime. She has also gotten into this wonderful habit of dropping (intentionally) her food on the floor. Stinker looks right at me when she does it...just waiting to be told to stop it. LOL. All in all, she's pretty smart, sweet, and very well behaved for a one year old. I loves her!

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new foods

They say to wait on peanut butter and hot dogs and such but...Kylie tried some peanut butter yesterday, I dipped her goldfish in it and she's not allergic and loved it. She has been eating hot dogs...if only she would keep her greasy fingers out of her hair *wink*. She pretty much eats what we eat...picky at times but not too bad.

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Kylies First Birthday

Where should I begin? I was a wreck the week of her birthday. Felt like nothing would be ready in time. The night before I got everything cleaned and baked. Attempt #1 on Kylies cake...forgot to spray the Giant Cupcake pan, so I threw that away and started over, bummed because it was going to be chocolate top and vanilla bottom, but attempt #2 I remembered to grease the pan but when I took it out of the oven, it still stuck inside the pan. I was emotional, frustrated, and tired, I said screw it, and went to bed leaving the cake to cool in the pan. That morning I got it out but it was damaged...#3 the bottom was damaged so bad there was no repairing it, but the top looked great. We ended up only using the top so her cake looked nothing like a cupcake. Bummed and embarrassed, I did not take pictures of it. The little cupcakes were okay though. My best friend Samantha came over early to help decorate, she was a party saver...without her I don't think my sanity would have been held in place. The decorations looked great, the food delish, and our guests all came except Matt's grandparents, which is completely understandable. Kylie went down around noon which is later than usual. Her naps have been about 1 1/2 hours long so I figured okay she will be a half hour late yo her party...nope, the one day I need her to take a short nap she sleeps hard for 2 hours and we had to wake her. She was definitely shocked by all the people in the living room, but she warmed up and we began with gifts. She was so excited about them, she carried them around to show everyone, she even seemed to be reading the cards. It took a while but we finally finished presents and went straight for cake...she wasn't as messy as I expected, and didn't seem to love it. LOL. She got some really great gifts. Clothes (which was much needed), kitchen, play food, tea set, Magnedoodle, leapfrog farm animal learning for the fridge, and lots of awesome books. After everyone left Kylie seemed over stimulated and ready for bed again, but she ended up staying up playing with grandpa and uncle Corey till about 9pm. Needless to say, I'm glad its.over. Not everything worked.out as I had planned, but its.okay, it wasn't about all that, it was all about Kylie bug! My baby is already one. No matter how old she gets, she will always be my baby girl.

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Falling behind...again...

Says done, ball, momma, Dada, up, bye, and a bunch of gibberish I can't understand LOL.
She has been eating more table foods: Turkey and Cheese (holy messy! Bath time always follows her eating Turkey and cheese) pork, roast, chicken, she hates mashed potatoes...there are actually a lot of things she is picky about...hope veggies aren't going to be a problem with her. She has had pancakes, tacos, and crackers like Graham crackers and Gold Fish. We are working with her on the Sippy cup but no success so far. Haven't tried milk yet, hopefully she can handle regular 2% milk...she's been on soy formula this whole time.
I noticed how tall she has gotten the other day. She used to barely be able to peek over the arm of the couch, now, not a problem.
Happy most of the time, but I think she is hitting a phase if tantrums and ridiculous wining. I can't clean, make dinner, or make bows without her freaking out. She prefers I sit on the floor rather than the couch. I am beginning to think she's a spoiled little thing...but in time, she will get over the neediness of mommy and want nothing to do with me, so honestly, even at its most annoying times, I'm enjoying it while it lasts.
Her birthday is on Mothers Day this year, definitely a Happy one for me. Im so proud. Can't believe she's already one. I have so much to do still before her party Saturday, but I'm sure everything will work out.
Pictures and story to cone after her birthday party.

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Just call me "Mrs. Bias"

I know it could be just that I'm her mommy, but I'm pretty sure my daughter is the cutest, smartest, most awesomest person in the world. She just makes me laugh and smile constantly. I'm PMS'ing but she finds a way to get my out of my crankiness. Today she said "done" when she finished eating. We have been watching Word World and she's just dancing away and fringe to say words they are spelling...or just figure it out LOL. She's the greatest! Can't believe 12 days she will be 1.

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Smart Cookie...

2 weeks from today my sweet ladybug will be 1 year old. She already has so much personality and is so smart. She blows kisses, makes Indian sounds, dances to music, waves when you're leaving, say bye bye, hello, or night night, she claps when you say yay or she is proud of something, loves being chased, and knows the concept of talking on the phone. I'm almost positive I'm forgetting things, but those are impressive things for a baby to know already. I can't believe how smart she is, how fast she pcis things up. She's still such a happy girl which makes for a happy momma. She doesn't say many actual words yet but she tries. So far she says up, momma, daddy, hi, bye, and today she tried to say love you. I really need to watch my language, now more than ever...LOL. So anyway, that's the news.

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Just for Fun...

Name- Kylie Paige Griswold
Dob- May 8th, 2010
Time- 5:47 pm
Weight- 7 lbs 11 oz.
Length- 20"
Labor- 37 hrs. I think...LOL...maybe longer...every second worth it!
Length of Pregnancy- 40 weeks 2 days

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Over & over...Again & again...

Sadly, I don't blog much anymore. Just simply don't have the time. I am one busy momma! This is like a broken record...no? Lol! I find myself saying this all the time, but its just so true.

My daughter is about to turn 1 and I'm so excited and planning her birthday party. Its a big deal to me. She is perfect. Keeps me laughing and smiling almost all the time. Its like making up for the emotional days back in the beginning.

I just read a blog about how depression feels like it takes over your life after having a baby. How you feel so down about yourself, and you wish your husband and daughter could have the mother/wife they deserve. Well, I'm living proof , it does get better. It doesn't get perfect...there are always those days when you just feel like crap. I no longer take mood stabilizers...my husband thinks I should still be on them sometimes, but one thing he needs to understand, I am still a woman...I stress like I always have, I get frustrated and overwhelmed...I'm a mother and a wife...I raise our daughter and care for our home. I am always on the go. Its a struggle to juggle all my mothering and wife responsibilities on top of my bow business. I don't get breaks. Its the life I chose, and I love every moment of it, but it can get overwhelming. I need help at times. There have been times when I feel my husband doesn't show the affection I need, there are many times I find myself repeating how I need him to help out a little more. When I say, "Please rinse out the bottles." I really mean, Damn it, stop leaving the bottles on the counter with milk in them getting smelly and nasty for me to clean because your too freakin' lazy to take it apart and rinse it out. I don't want to hear, "Babe, you do it to." Because until you're the one doing the dishes...you don't get to say that to me. If I leave messes, I'm the one who cleans anyway, I'm not going to complain to myself about it...but if he does...well hell yeah I reserve the right to bitch about it. He doesn't clean. Used to...but things have changed over time. My husband is still the most wonderful man in my life. I will love him till the day I die. But I tell you what...he can drive me nuts sometimes. Lol! I feel guilty saying that he should help out, because of him, I can be a home maker. It is my job to clean, cook, and take care of Kylie. But at the same time, his job is 4 days a week, 10 hour shifts. My job is 7 days week, 24 hour shifts. I cant always be expected to go go go.

There are always room for improvements. My husband and I are working on some improving in our relationship. Its not easy to change the things you don't like about yourself, and its not easy to change the things someone doesn't like about you but you don't see any problems with.

Matthew jokes...its just what he does. I know he really doesn't mean any harm, but common sense is key. If I'm not having a good day...joking and being a smart ass is probably the last thing you should do. Its only going to piss me off. If I'm feeling down about myself, say something sweet, kiss me, hug me, or just simply hold me...don't make jokes that make me feel stupid. I know Matthew cant read my mind, but he has made it very clear that I am blunt and wear my emotions on my sleeve...well, then you should know exactly what I am thinking...therefore, use that wonderful common sense I know you have in there, and do something nice, not something stupid. If I say I feel like an idiot, say, "Baby, you are not an idiot, I love you, you are smart" Lie if you have too...I dont care, if you want me to smile and get out of my poo pants kinda mood, say what you know I wanna hear. If I say, I really need to do dishes and laundry, but my back is killing me, you have two options that would totally rock my world (by the way ladies, I have actually told him to do this...see what I mean by I'm blunt...there is no reading my mind...just remember what works) back and foot rub or do either dishes or laundry. TaDa! Who knew...simple things like that could turn a frown upside down in the blink of an eye?! Lol! I don't need pills...I need love and support. I am grateful to have what I have...I know it and say it everyday...I just wish I felt appreciated in return. I have few friends...in fact, I have practically given up on friends. No offense to those who are friends, but how often do we hang out? When is the last time we talked? Yes, I am a needy person. I need girl time...I need to hang out to be friends. I'm beginning to believe its me. I'm just not friend material. I am too difficult, and my standards are too high. Two things I hope my daughter doesn't get from me. I want her to be able to make friends and keep them. I don't want her to have low self esteem. I read on Facebook wall to wall conversations between best friends...and I am envious. I wish I had what they have. But, I have flakey people in my life, I am always being told that we will go to the park, take walks, coffee dates...never happens. :o( And I used to be the one to send a reminder, but why should I give 100% to someone and they can pick me up and set me down when its convienent for them? Shouldnt it be a fair 50/50? Thats why I think its me. Maybe Im too aggressive...maybe I try too hard...maybe Im intimidating...I dont know, but I wish I was different.

Anyway, I really need to get back to work...just thought I would put some honest thoughts on my blog. Feel free to comment, tell me if you agree or disagree...Id love a little conversation in my life right about now. Lol.

reality struck...

So, I realised today just how big my daughter has gotten. I remember how simple it was to go on long trips and be able to change her diaper in my lap in the car...then it was on the backseat in the car....now, she's just simply too big for that. LOL. Her little noggin was practically infer the carseat while her little tooshy was hanging half off the seat with her feet on my legs. She is tall enough to reach the counter top in the bathroom (this is not a good thing by the way *wink*). I just don't know what happened. I woke up one morning and "TaDa!" She got so big. She's wonderful. More personality shows everyday. I love her. She's been quite the snuggled bug lately. I didn't get a whole lot of that when she was younger because she was just so busy, didnt want to be confined. So of course I'm eating it all up...cuddling every chance I get. We went to Bakersfield today for some birthday party supply shopping. Just me and Kylie. We had a blast. Lunch with Jenny. It was the first time Jen met Kylie. I had no idea. :( She loved her. But then again, who doesnt? ;)

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Sing & Dance

Kylie was singing and dancing to Backyardigans. It was awesome. We haven't put that show on in months. Now she actually watches all of it, not just the beginning and ending credits. Lol

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Traveling back in Facebook...

This morning: So while watching Comedy Central Presents, Kylie clapped when the audience clapped and laughed when they "Whoo'd". She's just awesome! I love her!

Last night: After hunting for a half hour for her sizzle, we found it....in my shoe...what a place to hide something you put in your mouth 50% of the time. LOL Comments: Elizabeth Wilson just adds more flavor!! yum Lisa Griswold YUM! LOL! Some sock lint for a midnight snack. Amanda Pipkin Oh man we are haveing the same issue but the dog ate it! Amy Jared hahahaha yummy! I always liked the old shoe flavor yup it rocked lol hahaha Ashley Hartman On the bright side, this means you can save money by just sticking your toe in her mouth. Lisa Griswold GROSS! LOL. Your too funny Brittany Ann Baker Haha, I have literally 23 binks around the house cause walmart is always out of her binks so I have to get tons! Plus we lose at least one a day :/ lol Lisa Griswold We had 4...one by one she keeps losing them. She started that a few weeks ago. LOL. Brittany Ann Baker Lol hiding them ? She's too cute Lisa Griswold Yes. Sometimes in her laundry basket, sometimes under her crib, I occasionally find them under the couches and she throws them.in her toy box. It really throws me off when she puts it in the top drawer where the diapers are. LOL. She's silly. The shoe...that was a first. And what funnier, I looked just not well enough because I saw her hand in my shoe all the way to her elbow LOL. Dea Coleman and when you start weening her off of them...you will realize that she knows were she has hidden every single one that you couldn't find months earlier :) Lisa Griswold I want her off the sizzle no later than 13 months, so Im going to start now. Only at nap times and bedtime. I saw a 14 month old running around with hers in her mouth and just cant see why a toddler should still have one. Kylie is walking...its time to give it up. Its going to be tough though, Im sure, she loves that thing...ugh. I was going to just let her ween herself, but I just dont know if she will be willing to in a timely manner...

March 26th: One year ago today, Kylie was in my tummy as we went to San Diego and waddled up the stage to pin my husbands badge on him at his graduation ceremony. He has worked so hard to make a life for us...to allow me to he a home maker and raise our daughter. I'm so proud of you babe! You mean everything and more to Kylie and me. ♥

Kylie is Walking Everywhere Today!!! Ahhh! Im so Excited, I cant even Contain myself!!! March 18 at 3:17pm via Android

March 17th: my lucky charm is just standing in the middle of the room giggling...nothing funny going in...just for the attention. And she took five more steps today! ♥

March 16th 12pm: Oh my God! *laughing sooo hard* Kylie is pushing her dinosaur with one hand and pulling her stroller with the other. Its like she can't decide which to walk with so she chose the best of both worlds. Awesome! ♥

Babies always know when your recording or when your camera/phone is dead...Kylie took 4 steps to her daddy to show off her book, the a few minutes later she stood in the middle of the room screaming and giggling at us, then she.was dancing away and singing...none of which I was able to capture...little stinker. At least the memories will last. March 15 at 5:09pm

I find myself constantly talking to Kylie like a puppy..."Kylie, no!" "Kylie, down" "Kylie, sit" "Kylie, stop chewing on the furniture...and shoes" LOL! March 12 at 10:11am

♥ If I had a dollar for every time my daughter makes me smile, I'd be a millionaire. ♥ March 9

She is just Fabulous!

Kylie has so much personality, it brings a smile to mommy's face Everyday!

She walks all over the place now. And I know most people say, "now she will get into everything and be under your feet all the time," but honestly, she was miserable not being able to walk. She wanted to so badly, and she would hold on to my pant leg and whine all the time, she would get into everything the day she figured out she could roll to where she wanted to go. So, walking, is awesome! I think its the most adorable thing to just sit and watch her go. And she clapped at herself the first time she walked from the center of the living room to her daddy. She was so proud, and of course so are we.

Now that she is almost a year old, I think its time we begin weening her from her sizzle. I would really prefer she doesnt have it anymore by 13 months. That gives her a month after she turns one to get used to the fact that she wont have it for bedtime and nap times either. It isnt going to be easy, believe me I know, she loves that thing, but it will need to be done eventually, and I dont think she will toss it herself in a very timely manner.

My growin' girl. Last night she ate bbq chicken, tortellini, and pears with us for dinner. I love being able to share food with her. Poor girl had no idea what she was missing.

Oh! Goodness! So, I had sent a message to my mom, dad, in laws, and a few friends asking about the first tooth. I felt like there were two bottom teeth when I found her first tooth had come in. Come to find, she does have both front bottom teeth! She wasnt even acting as though she was teething so hard, so I had no idea that two of them were pushing through. Although the past week or two she has had some rough sleep nights. She woke up the other night crying, and not even giving her sizzle back made her go back to sleep like usual. She was just absolutely miserable. For the first time, I had to rock her and she just stared at the ceiling snuggling. I put her back down, awake, after about 30 mins. of that, and she was fine. I think it was her mouth that was bothering her those restless nights. Poor thing.

Anyway, there are so many things I can talk about it...I could go for days bragging about how amazing this love bug is. She dances to everything. She is so happy, and giggles and plays so much more. I love watching her grow. Dont get me wrong, when she was newborn, she was the most precious thing Id ever seen, but I much rather this age. She is fun, she is learning, its just so wonderful.

I bought some party stuff for her first birthday. Its just around the corner and I am super excited. Its going to be perfect!

Well, I really should try harder to keep things up to date on here. I always post the fun and cute things Kylie does on Facebook, but I dont put them on here, and this is where I can reflect back to...time stamped and all...this is the diary of her life, so those moments are best memorialized if I type it up on here...Ha! and of course its not like its less convenient to post it on here as it is on Facebook...I can do it all on my phone. I will just have to try harder. Maybe I will go back in time on my Facebook, copy and paste to add things to here...yes...I think thats what I will do....

tears of joy...

Kylie walked half way across the living room on her own...me being the sappy mommy I am, I cried. I'm so proud of my Kylie bug.

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for real this time...

Her front bottom left tooth has officially broke through the gums...the one I thought was coming through months ago. Lol. She was walking around everywhere yesterday...she has been eating so many big girl foods...my baby isn't much of a baby anymore. Today is daddy's birthday and grandma and grandpa are here...so I'll write more later.

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dancing queen

Kylie dances to Everything! I love it. "Sway sway sway bounce bounce bounce" All songs make her shake her little bottom, she stops what she is doing and she will stand up and start dancing. Even when she's sitting down eating, she wiggles in her seat. I wish I could capture everything she does in camera...she is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen...and her personality is awesome. She's a terrific daughter, Matthew and I are so fortunate. Don't know what we did to get so lucky but I'm not complaining.

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Pictures from last month

There are so many...too many to choose from...so here are a few of my favorites.

'One small step for man; one giant leap for mankind'

She took Three...read it again...Three steps this morning. Yup, Im super duper proud. Of course, leave it to my daughter to only do it because there is food on her highchair that she wants, so without even thinking, she takes itty bitty steps towards it. My little piggy. She does love her food like her momma. Anyways...just thought I would shout it out to the world. My little girl is becoming such a big girl...too fast it seems. But its fun. Im not sad, Im thrilled. We did good...she is perfect!

3:18pm

Make that 7...count 'em...123456 Seven steps today! Oh my goodness baby girl...mommy and daddy are so proud of you. Keep going...you can do it.

My wonderful daughter...

Crapped in the bath! *giggle* Yes, she is adorable, sweet, and as perfect as any baby could be...and she made it to 10 months without poopin' in the bath tub, but tonight (ready to laugh your ass off?) she did it while I was recording her. Okay, so you may be asking why I was recording in the first place. She was being so dang cute. She was talking to herself in the reflection of the round metal thing that usually has the stopper for the drain. I grabbed my phone and recorded her in hopes she would do this again, but all she did was drink from her cup, choke on the water, and then Bam! Squats, Grunts, & Shits in the tub! I cant help but crack up...no matter how disgusting it is. There are many new things that I should have been blogging about, but you know me...too busy to even relax let alone blog. I really wish I would keep up better with this, but I do what I can, and I'm sure she will appreciate it one day, when she is 20 and reading about all the wonderful things her mommy is saying about her *wink*.

9-10 month well check

Kylie Paige weights 19.1 lbs and is 28" tall. My healthy baby girl. They poked her little toe to get some blood to check for anemia...she wasn't a fan of that for good reason.

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TODAY...

So, she stood in the tub like I keep telling her not to, and fell. Yup, freaked me out and I almost took a bath with her. She's fine though, held her breath very well and didn't inhale hardly any water. Then after her bath, got her lotioned up and dressed, and as I tried clipping her fingernails she fought with me, shocking right? Then, I went in the kitchen to make her bottle she stood there for 10 mins screaming and crying the loudest and most annoying cry ever. Needless to say, she can no longer miss her second nap. I tried putting her down around 4 after we got back from buying a vehicle for my husband, but she wouldn't even lay down much less sleep. Babies are hard for sure, but let me tell ya, she's a terrific baby. Best kid I have ever seen. The past 3 days have been so cheerful. She just needed to eat more. She's ready for chunkier foods and more portions during the day. They don't tell you these things, man. I thought she was just tired, or teething, cranky with an upset tummy...she was hungry at her usual times that we had a schedule so when she cried outside of that schedule I assumed it was something else. I'd be pissed if I was starving too.

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update since my last blog...

Well, after feeling complicated, I realise now that my hormones get out of control around my period...so I'm not depressed, I'm a damn woman *laughing*. Today was much better. My daughter has this way of turning my frown upside down like no one else can. She has a weird infatuation with socks...yup, you heard me, socks. Silly girl. I love her. Her tooth is still slowly pushing through, and it the cutest and funniest thing to watch her play with it with her tongue. She is talking more, the other night, she kept putting her cellphone to daddy's ear, he kept saying hello and she was trying to say it too. She likes to share, her sizzle especially. Yes, adorable.....adorably gross. She slobbers all over it and the tries putting it in my mouth. She means well *wink*. Still not walking on her own...but she is close. We are trying new foods with her...toast, strawberry, and little things here and there from my plate. I'm going to start making more things for her. Found a list of foods she can have. I'm excited, but the transition is difficult. Not only with not knowing when to feed her, but things are upsetting her tummy. We will.get there though.
My husband is such a sweetheart, when I'm down he is so patient. He just holds me, tells me he loves me and waits for my emotional BS to pass.

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....well....

To be perfectly honest, I dont know where to start. There has been so much going on that I cant even begin to write about all the milestones Kylie is hitting.

She is becoming more and more like a toddler and less and less like my little baby. She drinks out of the cup that is in her bathtub. I use it to rinse her hair out, and then let her play with it...without even showing her, she began filling it with water, and drinking from it like a big girl. I was in awe. I just couldnt believe how quickly she picked it up. I wish she would use her sippy cup like that, but instead, she bites it and then throws it down. Apparently its not that facinating. She has been quite the butt head lately though. Most moms say things like, "Oh, my baby is so wonderful..." Yes, my daughter is wonderful, but truth be told, she has picked up quite the attitude. She acts like she doesnt hear me when she is getting into something she isnt supposed to...oh my...I could go for days telling you how she has been acting the past couple weeks...but I will spare you and just say, Im looking forward to her actually understanding what discipline means. Honestly, I dont know how to discipline her at this age. I tell her no (frequently) when she refuses to listen to no or get down or get out of there *laughing* I spank her hands. Sometimes she cries, sometimes she smiles or laughs. I cant help but smile inside because she too adorable, however, I cant let her know that its cute because it wont be cute for too long, and Id really like her to stop being a brat. She screams...OH MY GOD how she screams. Her cries sometimes make me want to crawl into a hole and die. Of course I love her and would never leave or hurt her, but there are days when I simply dont know what to do. Sadly, I dont have friends that I can hang out with or talk to anymore. Something happened, and my "friend" just kinda stopped being a friend. So, I stay home (without my car) all day long with my baby girl who also has cabin fever...the weather has been windy and cold (yup, good 'ol Ridgecrest, Spring weather during the Winter, Winter weather during the Spring...gotta love it) so walks have been rare. I really wish that I had a friend who understood and I could talk to...but one of my good friends just doesnt. She wont complain, so when I complain, I feel like a whinner...I feel more horrible than I did before. She gives me advice or simply says things like, "it will get better." Thats not what Im looking for...Im looking for someone to vent to me too...I want someone to tell me that its completely normal to feel like your going to lose your mind...that being a mother isnt easy. I want someone who doesnt act like their life is perfect. No life is perfect. I think my daughter and husband are perfect to me...but they arent perfect...neither am I. So when my daughter is making me cry and scream, its normal to need to vent...when my husband drives me crazy because he isnt listening or saying the right things...its okay to be mad at him. Thats what real life is like. But, why dont others say things like that? Why do I feel like Im the only realistic person here? I have a friend who lives in Texas...she is like me, and she understands...but she is so far away...so we can do coffee dates...we cant take our little ones to the park together. I dont find myself depressed, but I am a little lonely. My bow making is a great hobby, but late at night is usually the only chance I have to make any. Kylie keeps me running...she is in constant need of my attention...but daddy...nope, he doesnt have to pay attention to her every waking moment...he can play his game or watch a movie and she will play contently by herself. I think she hates me sometimes. Well, as much as I need to get off my chest...the Monster is awake, so I have to go...But understand, I love my life...I do know whats important and I wouldnt change a thing.